my attempt . . . . .

I get ahead of myself quite often, across the board and in all aspects of my life. Whether it be with writing, learning new things, renovating the house, relationships, etc.
When it comes to writing I can't seem to keep track of my thoughts, organize or stay on topic to save my life. I also only seem to come up with ideas that I am happy with when I am incredibly intoxicated. While this is quite a romantic "wine and a rose and poe" notion, it is also totally unrealistic for someone who would acutally like to be able to understand what they wrote in the morning. Since more times than not, I am not just buzzed but knee-walking drunk this does not usually work out well for me. However, I do also realize that this could have more to do with my genetic make-up rather than my overall excitability or level of intoxication.
When it comes to learning new things I am the worst. As much as I enjoy learning, I have zero patience for the learning process. I want to be the best and I want it immediately. I picked up knitting about a year ago. I have also put down knitting about fives times in that year because my vision has always been much greater than my skill. I have finally resolved myself to learn without distraction. I am not a pro. I realize now that I will not be able to learn to knit while watching re-runs of Good Times or that foxy, foxy Mike Rowe covered in poo. It just won't happen. My brain does not have that sort of capacity or tolerance.